Thursday, September 27, 2007

I dunno what got into me. The traffic lights goes amber and i beat it and i almost hit a pedestrian. Haiya. But i take it as a learning process coz now i know how to handle when i see pedestrian jay walking. I can hit her but it seems that this country has rules. you can go to jail.. ehehehe.. it was a close one. really close. so i went driving and change instructor again.. where all my previous instructor go lah? hmm.. i got demoralised by this instructor.. when i do mistake he chit her and chit.. u know the chit chit sound and he counted my mistakes! i was so demoralised that i told him "i feel so scared right now".. he asked me why.. i said "i dunno. can we like practice changing gear for a while for a start".. he told me "ouh ok".. when i stopped, i told him that i feel so scared because he was doing all that stuff.. and i told him "dun scold me ah" he said he didnt scold me then i said coz u sound fierce.. so that shut him off.. i was not trying to pick a fight but sometimes being honest to people is good u know.. demoralisation is really bad.. it can really lead to really really bad driving.. so i decided to be honest.. and he asked me to breathe in breathe out before i drive again..

i was there stopping at the side of the road for 10 mins.. do u know what i was doing? i was praying for 10 mins.. pray pray pray and i feel calm.. so i said im ready.. and i told him again jus a reminder "dun scold me. i pay u leh. so dun. i might complain" i said it in a joking way lah of coz.. but sometimes joke is not a joke.. really mean it but make it like a joke to that i dont hurt the other person's feelings.. and sure enough aft that 10 mins of relaxation.. went driving.. and driving got 100 times better.. that wat i felt.. and i asked him too.. how is my driving "he said yes yes u're doing good".. so yah i drove all the way to the pick up point at compasspoint and i went back home. i hope next lesson w be better..

so what have i learn for today.. being honest is good. demoralisation may cause failure.. being relax, you are able to drive better.. next time wen i drive.. i wan to keep v v calm before i drive.. lets say 10 mins of chanting while on the way to the car.. ehehe.. if it works then why not.. thank you god for helping me.. =).